almost two months, can you believe it?

I am not sure if anyone is reading this blog anymore. I apologize for you avid readers if I have been slacking. I really didn't think after the wedding that anyone would be interested in reading this blog anymore. If you are, thank you for the interest.

I decide to drop an entry because I am bored at work and I just can't believe that almost two months have gone since I have been married. So, how is married life, you ask? Actually, it is not as bad as you would think. People are so surprised that there hasn't been some major upheaval or major conflicts over habits and territories since we didn't live with each other first. Yet, Vin and I are pretty laidback and similar in habits that there really hasn't been any major adjustment. There has been no power struggle. Both of us do the best to make each other comfortable and it has been working.

I had to get used to not being with my family for awhile. At times it was a bit strange but I have been seeing them often that I don't miss them as much. I really missed them a lot when Christmas rolled around and they were celebrating it in Miami with my cousins and I was stuck in New Jersey (due to work reasons). It didn't feel like Christmas without them.

Vin and I made our own Christmas. We got a real tree and decorated it in our home. I made Christmas cookies. Vin even agreed to go to Midnight Mass with me. I think it was only when I went to Mass did it feel like Christmas. Otherwise the holidays crept up without me really enjoying it like I used to. I even got a cold on Christmas and was not feeling in the holiday spirit because of it. I think the holidays have gotten more stressful now a days as you become an adult and have more responsibilities toward the holidays. Like you have to go shopping for gifts. You have to buy and write and send Christmas cards. You have to go to all these parties and cook and entertain. There is a lot of "have tos" when you are adult. When you were a child, there were less "have tos" and a lot to look forward to.

Anyway, back to married life, it is great so far. It must be the honeymoon phase because everyday I look forward to coming home and seeing my hubby. Now I have someone waiting for me to share the day. It is a good thing as Martha Stewart would put it. A good thing.

A chance to breathe again

We have come down from the high that was our wedding and our honeymoon. Now it is back to reality again. As I am enjoying my last hours before I return to the daily grind at work, I look back at the great day that was our wedding.

It was amazing if I do say so myself. I couldn't ask for a better more memorable wedding. It wasn't perfect but it was perfectly ours and that was all that I wanted. Straight from the wedding rehearsal to the wedding, everything turned out well despite all the mishaps. For example, despite the groom being late for rehearsal we ended in time to do one run through and before the other wedding party came for their rehearsal.

Despite all the excitement, I was able to get some sleep before the wedding. It took a while but I was able to catch some z's. In the morning, I woke up very calm and ready for anything. I was fortunately very calm about the whole thing from the beginning. People were surprised how unnerved I was. I just took it in stride. I knew that things would fall in place.

The whole day was really very surreal for me. Even when I walked down the aisle. I knew that people were looking at me but I just focused on all the people that were there, all the friendly faces that were there. It really didn't hit me that this was a big deal. Even when I sat on the altar with Vin. I somehow thought it would be more momentous like God was going to come down in front of me and tell how great and historic this moment was. Instead I took it as it was. I sat in on the ceremony very present to the moment but no worries, no pressure, no big expectations were held. I was just able to enjoy the whole event. I kind of wished that I was an audience member to my own wedding and so, I can see all the little moments like Vin dropping the ring , my parents' faces as they walked me down the aisle. I hope those moments are caught on film.

I am a pretty emotional person. I can cry at a drop of a hallmark card. I was surprised that I didn't start crying once I walked down the aisle. The only time I really started feeling emotional was when I saw my brother's eyes welling up as he saw me on the altar or my mother breaking down as I gave her the rose. That was when I started to tear up. Otherwise, I was happy to be there with everyone.

It was just such a beautiful day. We were blessed with great weather and the reception was so much fun. I enjoyed it so much that others were singing at the piano, enjoying the great food, dancing to the music. It was all Vin and I hoped for. I was able to have a good time because I could see that everyone was having a great time.

I want to thank my parents, my mother-in-law, my brother, and my new Ferraro and Keighron Family, and my cousins, aunts, uncles and all our friends for sharing the day with us. We couldn't have a better time. From the personal speeches that made me cry and made the both of us feel so special to the great dancing moments and laughter shared by all, Vin and I were blessed. Thank you all.

Please stayed tuned to the blog. We will announce when the wedding pictures are posted on www.pictage.com so that you can look at the wonderful moments at our wedding.

Thank you again.

we're married!

this will be a short blog because we're really, really tired. we will write a longer one telling about all the follies that went on, from funny things that happened at the ceremony to the fun times at the reception.

just let it be known that we are officially married.

and am loving every single minute of it.

and a huge THANK YOU to everyone that was involved, we couldn't have done it with out you.

it's the final countdown

all-righty then, less than 52 hours before the wedding and counting, and i still have to make 58 more origami cranes (out of 302). oh, and pick up my tux later today.

people keep asking me "are you nervous?" and i say "no." why should i be? first off, if i didn't want to get married i wouldn't have asked cheryl to marry me, plain and simple. am i fraid something will go wrong at the ceremony, like someone tripping while walking down the aisle, or someone forgetting what they're supposed to do, or whatever? not in the least. if something goes awry, i say screw it. if something like that happens, let it happen. who cares? in the long run, it won't matter, and might even make things more memorable. or at the very least we'll get a good laugh.

cheryl's been relaxing a bit lately because she has family in town (staying with her actually), and they've been helping out alot. they've been putting together the favors, and helping with the programs, and just being supportive. so i'd like to say a big thank you to them, THANK YOU. now that cheryl's more relaxed, i'm more relaxed.

and i won't have to beat her sensless with a shoelace.

what i've been up to you ask?

well, i've mostly been telling cheryl that she's making more work for herself than she needs to, and if she complains that she doesn't have enough time to finish everything that i'm going to have to beat her senseless with a shoelace.

or something to that effect....

the final stretch

Well, I have finally gotten a chance to catch my breath and write this blog. The only time I get to rest is at work. Ironic, don't you think?

So, things have been busy. It is all the small details such as programs, table arrangements, favors, and such. I have been running around like a chicken without its head and it is might ugly scene. Of course, alot of the anxiety is created by myself. I could make things easier for myself but I don't. Such as the programs. I could have completed them last month but I didn't. I could have choosen a more simpler cover design but I didn't. So, alot of my own anxiety is self-induced. I have no one to blame but myself.

There are still other things to do which I haven't touched upon. Such as packing my stuff to move into our apartment. I am thinking maybe I should pack after the wedding because then it would be less hectic. Yet, I think it might be me procastinating on leaving my families' house. It is such a great house and I will miss it dearly. I will miss my family dearly.

Soon, there will be a dozen people staying at my house. 5 of them will be flying in from the Philipppines. It is nice to know that the last night I will sleep in my house as a single woman I will have lots of family surrounding me. It is a pleasant thought.

Well, thanks to my family, I have been able to make it so far without admitting myself into the hospital. My cousin Ayee who came in a month ago has been very helpful and understanding and patient and incredible. There are more great words to describe her but I think you get the picture. She has been such a help getting things together, designing things, organizing and doing prep work. I have to thank her immensely. I really don't know what I would do without her here. Also, my cousin My is also lending a hand or two in finishing the programs. My dad is helping out with favors. My friend Terry also helped out in making table numbers. You really find out how many hands it takes to make a wedding. And I appreciate all these hands.

I am not sure if this will be my last blog. I might find some small increment of time to update you on the wedding. If I am lucky. If not, I will see you all at the wedding.

thank you roehl

i had a great time this weekend, and it was all due to roehl, so thank you very much. and thanks to jeff, steve, julman, barney, pat, and joel for coming by.

i learned two things this weekend:

1. roehl does not like it when you put on the heat,

and,

2. never, ever, let steve order anything over the phone. ever.

again, thank you all very much, especially you roehl.

and a shout out to libby for his assistance in all of it. thank you.