Self reflection on stress management

I have noticed an inverted relationship between the number of days left before the wedding and my stress level. As the number of days before the wedding decrease, the greater level of anxiety increases. It is reflected in the less hours of sleep I have been getting, the increase in the number of acne I have been getting and the increase in sweets I have been craving (fortunately, I haven't been gaining the weight. I am only maintaining).

I have also noticed how I handle my stress level. Not so well, in fact. I have noticed that I am getting very defensive and jumpy when it comes to every suggestion thrown at me. I have unfortunately been taking it out mostly on Vin and my parents and I have to apologize. I realize it is a reflection of my own insecurities, my own need for perfection. I really have to check myself nowadays and make sure that I don't take it out on the people I care for the most. I think the next time I get those feelings again. I am just going to have to breathe slowly before I respond to anyone.

Many people have given me the advice of taking it one day at a time and remember what it is all about. It is hard to be mindful of that when you are caught up in the details of many things. Many expectations are thrown your way and I am such a people pleaser that I have a hard time not trying to meet those expectations. So, here I go breathing in and out, breathing in and out. Practicing my mantra: "It is just one day. Enjoy it." I hope to, God willing ; )